Category Archives: Depression

These entries center around my tendency towards depression. It’s sad to make this a category, but writing about it helps!

Better Living Through Chemistry

Per my psychiatrist, I’m now in partial remission of my chronic major depression, which I’ve been treated for over the last ten weeks. [Yeah, I'm one of those people who looks at the DSM-IV codes written on my chart after every session, memorizes it, and then goes home to look up the code's meaning [...]

Opening a Closed Book

Two posts back to back? Well, in the spirit of personal transparency …
I’ve obviously had a category called depression for some time. Typically I’ve written about depression as it was happening as a form of therapy—acknowledging the problem is how I’d pull myself out of the funk I was in. [Or so [...]

Welcome to the Goldrush

Suddenly I’m weightless.
Gravity is mine.
I see it with my eyes closed,
what my heart knows: we must leave this world behind.
‘Cause when I wake from dreaming,
it’s then I’m most alive.
Eye lids barely open, no words spoken,
ah, but you were by my side.
You can always tell me
anything at all.
Think of all the times
you’ve let my lips move, [...]

An End, Some Means, No Need

I’ve only ever gotten very close to suicide once. I’ve thought about it more than once, mainly because the one time I got close made it a spiritual issue [as if it's not], and, well, I believe in spiritual warfare. Our weaknesses are exploited by the one who tempts.
This is one of mine, [...]

Tackling Too Much, Too Fast

When I find a problem and really come to grips with it, I always have this urge to charge headlong at it like a crazed strong safety who sees the running play developing in front of his eyes. Like that safety, I want to charge headfirst into the hole, elude the blockers, and knock [...]